Prayer for Healing: "woven in these lines of seven"

in days gone for long ago
when a boy was I before
angelic but violate
without recollection clear
	my suffering started then
in hands that were bound to trust
secret demon living near

to forgive and to forgo
must remember much and mark
or imagine total hell
to list off the mortal sins
	against me but not my cause
to take that cross anymore
put it down then CT wins

yes raped and burned and beat me
was it one or eight or three
must assume the very worst
to cleanse my self of the hurt
	broken vision out of time
devils details plague your mind
question is the knowing worth

as the story tells too much
kicked from forty wooden stair
head smashed by the boards and ground
held to burn by black woodstove
	on and on the past repeats
echo like the trumpet blast
shed my chains and weight unload

michael judge them as ye will
raphael guide me to love
god damn the man who hurt child
victim I am nevermore
	not slave to any master
intentions of another
I am what I am no more

free from shame of transgression
with no power to escape
freed from guilt and obsession
restore life in loving grace
	asserted self with my named
CT wins free from all blame
for this past that broke my face

pure intents will manifest
freedoms true in each of us
to heal our wounds and this world
let thy earth be like heaven
	all thanks we give you alone
for that which we are and gain
woven in these lines of seven